Greetings 2017!

Excuse me for a moment, let me brush these cobwebs off the website…

Just a few more moments, it’s been quite a while…

Almost there, just gotta get this last one up in the corner, hanging out by the browser X.

Ahhh, there we go  Nice and clean and ready to go.

It’s been a while blog, I’ve been avoiding you like the plague.

Now it’s time to get back in the saddle and get back to what I want to do, write about life.

So, coming soon (April to be exact!) look out for a totally revamped and interesting website.  I’m going to venture into living in Japan, dating in Japan, book reviews, opinions and musings about life… maybe stir up a bit of controversy here and there like I have in the past.  Who knows what the adventure will bring, but I’m going to enjoy the ride.

If there’s anything you, whoever you might be, are interested in seeing, let me know!  Drop a comment below or message me directly, I’ve finally settled into this crazy place I’ve come to love and I’m ready to share a bit of it with the world.

It’s late and I’m running out of ideas

Alright, no, I lied.  I have a million ideas… how do I get them out?!  That’s the thing, surmounting this writer’s block, putting down the things I want to talk about.  I think maybe this is the first step.

Forgive the next few days of my bumbling, trying to find the content and ideas I want to express.  But after a long reprieve and some serious soul searching after surviving a natural disaster, I’m ready to reach for my dreams.

You’re responsible for your own happiness

As I sit here in the laundromat, I’m having a million different thoughts.  For the first time in as long as I can remember I’m all alone.  It’s caused a lot of different feelings and thoughts. 

The most important one I’ve come to is that I am wholly responsible for myself.  No one else is, just me.  I’ve always been surrounded by friends, I should really consider myself very fortunate to have such amazing people in my life.  They’ve always been there… a room away, a 5 minute drive away or even a short plane ride away.  Now, my closest friend is an hour by expensive bullet train and I don’t even have the time to visit.

I’m alone but not unhappy about it.  I was at first, I spent days crying because I didn’t know what to do with myself.  This couldn’t have come at a better time though, because its forced me to wake up and smell the coffee.  I can’t rely on those around me for my happiness.  And I’ve done that for so long I realized I don’t know how to make myself happy.  I always expected someone else to do it for me. 

I’m sorry to those in the past who I’ve relied on too much.  Thank you for always putting up with me and supporting me and being there when I needed you.  I know being my friend isn’t a walk in the park, but I thank you for sticking by me all this time. 

In the past, I’ve always wanted to blame the other person when things went sour.  “I’m the perfect friend, how could it be me.” Hahahaha.  I wish I could reach back into the past and slap myself around a little bit.  While it may not have been all my fault, I certainly had a hand in how things turned out.  More than a hand, more like a thigh or whole leg, because I could never see my own faults, only those of other people. 

Being alone has given me the opportunity to really learn about myself and know who I am.  It’s only been about a month now, but I’m sure as each day continues to march forward I’ll learn even more new and fun things about myself.  I’m actually quite excited. 

Bring it on, life.  I can handle whatever you throw at me.

I’m moonlighting…

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Well, I guess it’s not technically moonlighting, but I have been cheating on my own creative writing blog.

I started a new adventure with a friend over at Pen Strokes and Paw Prints.  I’m enjoying the adventure so far and hopefully doing this together will keep us both on track.

It’s about 3:30 in the morning over here.  Things have been up and down recently.  I had a wonderful vacation in the Kansai area and then I came home and hurt my back again.  Of course.  On the mend now so I hit up the beach this morning to get in some light exercise.  I took a stroll along the sand and sat on a bench with a book for a bit.

I’ve been getting a lot of good advice and support recently, so hopefully great things are down the road.

Another month gone

Sometimes it’s hard to believe that I’ve been here for 9 months… It’ll be 10 in four days.  Sometimes I have nightmares that I’m back in America, back at my old, terrible job, trying to suffer through life.

Making the decision to come here certainly wasn’t easy, but it is by far the best thing that has ever happened to me.  There are still some stressful days, and there are days when I wish for some of the comforts I had in America (everyone speaking English is by far the biggest one) but I love the challenge.  I’m loving this challenge.  Every day my listening skills with Japanese improve and I’m working on my speaking.  I’m trying to carve a life for myself here.  I have an insanely good support system, and I’ve met really amazing people.  So if I had to go back in time, I would still make this decision.

Being here has also given me the chance to open up my more creative side.  I don’t feel quite so ‘blocked’ now, for the last couple of years I’ve been trying to write several things and they never really came out.  The most important piece, and one I’ve been meaning to write, was ‘Spark.’  It was almost like after I let all of that bottled up emotion out that other things finally started to fall into place.  I still have a long way to go to achieve my dreams, but I have so many people supporting me now that I know I can achieve them.  It’s time to do it.

As for my writing goals this month, I did a lot better than I had expected.  I have a chart immediately to my right that asks, ‘Did you write today?’ and I’m still shocked at how many smiley faces I made on it.  It truly is amazing the things we can accomplish when we challenge ourselves.  I hope to have even more in August.  I know some days it just won’t be possible… there are some days I just don’t have anything to say.  But I’m going to push through.

This month I have a lot of good things planned for myself, but I’m not sharing!

And lastly, I finished up my ‘Sentence a Day’ challenge over at Scribblin’ About Life.  Check it out, let me know what you think.  This was an interesting experiment and one I plan to keep on doing.  The person who I wrote this piece about keeps me on my toes, and I usually wrote every day still riding on the emotions I felt from them.  It’s really interesting for me because I can tell which days I was irritated with him and the days I was enamored.  It’ll be fun to look back on this in a couple of months and read into the emotions I was feeling at the time.

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Happy August! (=^ェ^=)

Books vs Movies

Watching Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire with my sister, and recording our gripes about the differences.  Post coming soon about the really horrible things we noticed.

Including:

– Hermione’s Dress

– Barty Crouch

– Lapses of Time

We both agree that this is the worst adaptation out of all of them.  Ugggh, so irritating.

Tomorrow looks to be a promising day.  My first solid day off since the weekend, with no real big plans.  Ahhhh, I’m sick of working doubles.

At least, however, tomorrow is payday. 🙂

There can only be one…

Just finished watching the Highlander.

I watched that movie instead of doing a good update like I was planning since today is August 1 and I blogged about something every day in July.  I think on two separate occasions I actually managed two in one day.

So, I was feeling proud and wanted to do something interesting.

And then I started cleaning my apartment and cooking dinner and watching movies.  Oh well, maybe tomorrow.  =]