Trying to find my footing

Every month I plan to start on the 1st.  I don’t know why, but there’s something about starting the month fresh.

And then the 1st passes, and I hesitate and wait and then it becomes a vicious cycle.

I know I have writer’s block, and the best way to get rid of it is to just write.  So that’s my plan.  I have a hard time thinking of how I want to say something, but I certainly have a million things to say.  I’m going to try to stick to a routine and post every other day.  Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays.

Tuesdays, I’ll talk about life in Japan.  Often I find myself googling something for cooking or cleaning, and I often have to visit a few sites to get all the information I need.  I’d like to compile those and make it simpler for others (and myself!) to access.  I’d also like to talk about adjusting to life here and the differences between America and Japan.

On Thursdays, I’d like to do a little bit of TBT.  For now, I’m sure I’ll run out of old things I want to talk about, but I’ll try to think of some interesting stories… I’ve got a lot of fun ones from my last Japan.

Saturdays will be about opinions and my ideas.  There are so many terrible things going on in the world right now, I’d like to present my take on things and try to have a good discussion among readers.

That’s the plan for now.  It’s approaching Monday night here in Japan, so I’ll be heading off to bed soon.  Look forward to something tomorrow.  I’ll also continue to creatively write over at My Creative Writing Blog and I’m also writing with a friend over at Pen Strokes and Paw Prints. So be sure to head on over and check those out as well.

Back on my game, and finding my niche.  Time to reach for my dreams.

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A year full of good memories

Last year, in terms of the whole year, was pretty crappy.  I went through a lot of growing and changing and some pretty rough times.  But I continued to write down every good thing that happened and fold a crane for them.

Let’s take a stroll back to the past:

https://worddisorder.wordpress.com/2014/07/03/cranes-for-happiness/

So, now I have the update.  I had wanted to do a big party (with myself) on January 1st and open and reminisce about the year.  But, I was in America and the cranes were back in Japan, so I didn’t get a chance to do that.

So, now that I’ve completed it:

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I’m going to open one every time I have a bad day and remember the good things that happened.  Hopefully it inspires me to keep my head and keep doing what I need to do.

Total Count: 109

This year’s goal: 150

Dance alone to the beat of your heart

There has been so much going on recently, sometimes I don’t even know where to begin when I get up in the morning.  Sometimes I just want to stay in my bed and act like I don’t have anything to do.  As I continue getting older, I really do miss being in high school and not having nearly as many responsibilities as I have now.

I’m working hard now to fix myself and to become a better person.  I have big goals and even loftier dreams and to achieve them I have to be at 100%.  I’ve spent the last 6+ months dwelling in my own self-pity, having a party for myself every day and justifying my bad decisions because of the crappy things happening around me. I’m not going to let that happen anymore.

You’re too tired?  Too bad, work.

You’re too sad? Too bad, work.

You’re too cold? Too bad, work.

No more excuses.  Do I want this? More than anything on the planet.  What’s the first step?  Actually doing something for it.

So, I’m starting today.  Right here, Write Now.

https://strokeofthepen.wordpress.com/2015/02/06/debt/

Coming Back

They say the longer you’re away from something, the harder it is to come back.

I’ve had a lot of free time to dwell on a lot of things:  things I have been doing and things I haven’t been doing.

And my biggest regret has always been not writing every day.

I’m not going to make any promises and I’m not sure where this is going to lead, but a lot of amazingly good things have happened to me.

This is just the start.  Day one, step one.  My feet moving in the right direction.  I know what I want to do, and now it’s time to achieve it.

Womp womp womp, I can fill this with inspirational BS, or I can just go ahead and set out what I started to do.  Write.

I want to say so many things right now…

But I’m having a hard time keeping my eyes open.  So many great things are happening recently, because I forced them to change.

For the first time in a long time, I feel like I’m in control of my life.  I make all of the decisions, I’m the boss.  If I don’t like something, I can just cut it out.  I’ve been living in Japan for almost a year now and I finally decided to be pro-active.

I don’t want to say anything just yet, but I will.  Once I’m sure these changes are permanent and going to last, I’ll go ahead and spills the beans.

I just recently hit over 130 followers!  Thank you so much to every one who has followed my blog so far!  Don’t be afraid to comment and put in your two cents (especially on Daily Prompts, I love criticism!).  I have a lot of things in the pipes coming up for Word Disorder and Scribblin’ About Life.  I’m really really (I put two, I must be REALLY excited) excited for what the future is going to hold, and I hope you are too.

As tax today, a song that helped me get through the work day.